WHO IS IN CONTROL?

A contemplative piece of writing and reflection on the nature of mind, and how to be authentic

An invitation to read the following slowly, not in the way one reads data for information collecting, but with a contemplative mind that evokes curiosity, and the possibility of learning something about oneself. Not as a goal to get anywhere, but merely for the love of learning.

Encouragement to activate your non-judgemental loving awareness

[proceed to contemplation]

Who’s in control?

You or your mind?

“The mind is a beautiful slave, and a horrible master.”

I’ve created a separation between you, and your mind.

Definitions are helpful here… many people mean many things by the term mind.

Mind, in the context I am using it refers to the personal and conscious mind that ordinarily operates through most experiences in the day-to-day undertakings

Mind is difficult to define because its borders are not real

There is also what is termed the Great Mind or Universal mind, which is an impersonal mind, the cosmic mind….this mind is not as rooted in the personal perspective of a limited bodymind, but rather is a more inclusive or objective mind of creation. 

Within the personal mind with which we will be discussing there are various levels above and below

Below the conscious mind is the personal subconscious mind, an underlying architecture of programmed patterns, habits, phobias, fears, attractions, aversions, etc., that filter energy and information into the personal conscious mind of current exploration. 

There are yet deeper layers that influence your subconscious and conscious mind, such as the unconscious which harbours archetypal energies

In order to work with this material, it is not necessary to understand the depths of the subconscious mind or the heights of the universal or superconscious mind.

Yet, it is good to contemplate the various levels of organization and influence that effect your mind

For our present purposes we will be exploring the personal and conscious mind, and some of its influences, and a place I will term the center or source of your being.

An opportunity for contemplation:

Is there anything without a center or source?

Pause, and let the mind explore.

Come to silence, then return to the question and look deeper.

These contemplations seek not to answer, but to exercise the capacity to look deep into the nature of existence…of your existence.

[transition]

Please follow along

Let’s set up a relationship between what is you and your personal and conscious mind, and your center or source.

In order to follow further I am going to make some assumptions, please read them and assess if they feel resonate or truthful in your body. 

At your center, is your source.

Your center is not an abstract term…at the center of what you are, within and inside, there is a source of life.

Pause to contemplate

[further]

The source of your life is at the center of your being and body …and like a seed your growth and expression is an inward expression moving out word

Creation, or the external universe may sustain and reflect your body and mind, but the center is your source.

-at this point, I may have diverged in a direction that is not resonate with your truth.  It does not matter which direction one goes, please follow along-

[continue]

So then, the source of your life, body, and mind is to be found at the center of your being.

Assertion (assess for validity): at a basic level, you are energy

Making the language as simple as possible, at a fundamental level the movement of your mind and body can be described in terms of energy, vibration, and information.

Therefore, the energy of actions can be sourced from one of two directions….

The energy of your actions can be a reaction to an external energy

Or the energy of your actions can be sourced from your center

[breakdown]

When the energy of our actions is sourced from an external source, the world outside of us determines how we act and respond.  Various energies outside of ourselves that influence our energy are the opinions of others, external pressures such as social norms, cultural conditioning, fears, external conditions such as weather, etc. Please think of a few other sources in which the external environmental triggers dictate your decisions, and spend time to reflect on how this effects your decision making

Where is the power when external energy determines internal action?

Find some key examples in your life, in relation to where your at in your growth cycles and in relation to your purpose and dream manifestation…what external conditions and energy is influencing your decisions?

Financial? Societal judgement? Fear? Lack of confidence as a reflection of needing external validation?

The more you work with the above contemplation and the energy it evokes in your body will be of benefit to the process we are on.

[review]

We have just identified where we are at in life with relation to your goal or purpose and named some of the external energies that we perceive are blocking your way forward.

Assertion: All of these perceived external energies of limitation are all within your mind

Therefore, they have no concrete existence outside of your own mind, and since they exist and were created in your mind, your solution to them is not outside yourself, but inside.

Where then is the power in this equation and approach?

[pause]

“you mean to tell me that what stands in front of my dreams is all in my head? Your telling me that I’ve been struggling over X and Y and Z for days/weeks/years and it’s all my fault”

-you feel that? What was that?

“what was what?”

  • ‘it’s all my fault’, what is that?

“a judgement”

  • Yes. That is your mind. The personal mind we are exploring and deconstructing. Let us come back to the introductory invitation to enter into this practice with a non-judgemental and loving mind of observation and exploration.

“thank you”

  • An encouragement to recognize the emotions that arose in your body, where you felt them, and the corresponding effects in your mind.  Let’s take a few deep breaths together, relax the body and come back to the exercise from a place of balance.

[reader: please pause take a few breaths and continue]

The nature of challenge and growth.

This contemplative exercise aims to access the mind and find out who’s in control.

Next, let’s talk about the nature of challenge and relate it back to our process.

Challenge always has an effect in the body.

When we grow we expand from inside out.  The effect is that energy from our center is expanding outward and in all direction (this energy may be in our upper body, lower body, an organ, our spine, our energy field, etc). The process of energy expanding outward will meet a point wherein it approaches its limitation, or the border of expansion the energy of your bodymind has reached up until that point. At the edge of your expansion is a perceived limitation that has thus far been a boundary of what is possible. When we relate it to our dream or purpose, the process is one of creating a vision and moving towards it.  The next effect will be moving forward toward said purpose and consequently we will encounter a perceived limitation in the body or mind (please see your above examples of perceived external energies that limit your creation).  When you encounter a limitation or challenge there will be a corresponding pressure and localized contraction or change in your bodymind, perhaps a resistance to thinking or doing something, a tightness in the gut, or a closing in of the heart.  This is the area where the energy from your center is expanding outward, and the pain, the discomfort, the blocked emotion, the perceived limitation is piece of you that will be opened into and explored, and expanded upon. 

That’s a fair bit of information. Please read it over and assess its truth value.

Understanding this basic cycle of growth is important because to master the mind, we must understand the process of the mind, and how to move beyond it to break limitation and perceived blocks. 

When we have a direction, say towards our dream, and we have identified the perceived external limitation or belief, then there is an opportunity to turn within to the body and find where the specific holding is.  From here, once everything has been identified, one then turns to tools and techniques of inner development and clearing.  For example, I work with breathwork, movement, and meditation techniques. 

Why?

All development, is actually inner development. The breath is the doorway into the body and mind, and not just the personal conscious mind, but the breath allows us to access deeper aspects of the subconscious and superconscious mind. Through the breath we can go beyond the ordinary mind.  Because all blockages and limitations of mind and body have a body based component, moving the body and working with the energy of the body and mind are essential inner tools that are within you to be accessed at any time.

[transition]

We have thus explored the nature of setting a goal, encountering a challenge, identifying the perceived external limitations of the mind, tracing them back into the body, and then we briefly touched upon tools to clear blockages and move forward. This basic cycle is your key to mastering and achieving any goal, because the cycle is always the same, and the mind is predictable. The more you work with going beyond the mind, the clearer you see the mind, and then instead of being a victim to external energy or the nature of the mind, which is sometimes to judge or doubt, or create barriers, then you are empowered and resourced with a capacity to go beyond.

The journey then is to reclaim the energy you have given the mind and direct it towards your dreams. This is the process of empowering yourself and your actions.  It involves dropping the need to be liked, dropping the need to fit in, to succeed on someone else’s terms, it means dropping self judgement, and learning act from your center.

When you are at your center, your energy is an easeful outpouring of your authenticity.  It is not an effortful act, there is secretly nothing easier than being you, it just takes a process of unravelling all the faulty selves we have layered on top of our authenticity to find our intuitive way in the world.  It requires detaching from the mind and the conditioning one has built and learning to trust the inner guidance that is always within us. It is empowering to take your energy back from where it was leaking.  It is a process, be gentle on yourself, once more a reminder to be non-judgemental and loving as you turn within, for how else would you want to enter your innermost garden?  Coming to your center is a coming home, to your source, the same source of all of life.  When connected with source energy you are connected to the energy of creation, that roars like ten-thousand suns.  Clarifying your connection to your source and center creates a bridge between you and the universe, and all beings. 

[final meditation]

Allow for 5 minutes.

To complete this contemplation and meditation, sit comfortably.

Take your time to come to silence, a point of stillness in the mind, an inner quite before doing the following.

Become aware of the energy and space in front of you, behind, to the left and right side, above and below. Then find your center.

Sit in meditation or Write

Please repeat the following

I express by authenticity by ……(blank)

Example

I express my authenticity by acting freely

I express my authenticity by being free from fear

I express my authenticity by being honest

Continue on your own

Finish by taking three deep breaths, and letting go into a short meditation

[end]

A contemplative piece of writing and reflection on the nature of mind, and how to be authentic

An invitation to read the following slowly, not in the way one reads data for information collecting, but with a contemplative mind that evokes curiosity, and the possibility of learning something about oneself. Not as a goal to get anywhere, but merely for the love of learning.

Encouragement to activate your non-judgemental loving awareness

[proceed to contemplation]

Who’s in control?

You or your mind?

“The mind is a beautiful slave, and a horrible master.”

I’ve created a separation between you, and your mind.

Definitions are helpful here… many people mean many things by the term mind.

Mind, in the context I am using it refers to the personal and conscious mind that ordinarily operates through most experiences in the day-to-day undertakings

Mind is difficult to define because its borders are not real

There is also what is termed the Great Mind or Universal mind, which is an impersonal mind, the cosmic mind….this mind is not as rooted in the personal perspective of a limited bodymind, but rather is a more inclusive or objective mind of creation. 

Within the personal mind with which we will be discussing there are various levels above and below

Below the conscious mind is the personal subconscious mind, an underlying architecture of programmed patterns, habits, phobias, fears, attractions, aversions, etc., that filter energy and information into the personal conscious mind of current exploration. 

There are yet deeper layers that influence your subconscious and conscious mind, such as the unconscious which harbours archetypal energies

In order to work with this material, it is not necessary to understand the depths of the subconscious mind or the heights of the universal or superconscious mind.

Yet, it is good to contemplate the various levels of organization and influence that effect your mind

For our present purposes we will be exploring the personal and conscious mind, and some of its influences, and a place I will term the center or source of your being.

An opportunity for contemplation:

Is there anything without a center or source?

Pause, and let the mind explore.

Come to silence, then return to the question and look deeper.

These contemplations seek not to answer, but to exercise the capacity to look deep into the nature of existence…of your existence.

[transition]

Please follow along

Let’s set up a relationship between what is you and your personal and conscious mind, and your center or source.

In order to follow further I am going to make some assumptions, please read them and assess if they feel resonate or truthful in your body. 

At your center, is your source.

Your center is not an abstract term…at the center of what you are, within and inside, there is a source of life.

Pause to contemplate

[further]

The source of your life is at the center of your being and body …and like a seed your growth and expression is an inward expression moving out word

Creation, or the external universe may sustain and reflect your body and mind, but the center is your source.

-at this point, I may have diverged in a direction that is not resonate with your truth.  It does not matter which direction one goes, please follow along-

[continue]

So then, the source of your life, body, and mind is to be found at the center of your being.

Assertion (assess for validity): at a basic level, you are energy

Making the language as simple as possible, at a fundamental level the movement of your mind and body can be described in terms of energy, vibration, and information.

Therefore, the energy of actions can be sourced from one of two directions….

The energy of your actions can be a reaction to an external energy

Or the energy of your actions can be sourced from your center

[breakdown]

When the energy of our actions is sourced from an external source, the world outside of us determines how we act and respond.  Various energies outside of ourselves that influence our energy are the opinions of others, external pressures such as social norms, cultural conditioning, fears, external conditions such as weather, etc. Please think of a few other sources in which the external environmental triggers dictate your decisions, and spend time to reflect on how this effects your decision making

Where is the power when external energy determines internal action?

Find some key examples in your life, in relation to where your at in your growth cycles and in relation to your purpose and dream manifestation…what external conditions and energy is influencing your decisions?

Financial? Societal judgement? Fear? Lack of confidence as a reflection of needing external validation?

The more you work with the above contemplation and the energy it evokes in your body will be of benefit to the process we are on.

[review]

We have just identified where we are at in life with relation to your goal or purpose and named some of the external energies that we perceive are blocking your way forward.

Assertion: All of these perceived external energies of limitation are all within your mind

Therefore, they have no concrete existence outside of your own mind, and since they exist and were created in your mind, your solution to them is not outside yourself, but inside.

Where then is the power in this equation and approach?

[pause]

“you mean to tell me that what stands in front of my dreams is all in my head? Your telling me that I’ve been struggling over X and Y and Z for days/weeks/years and it’s all my fault”

-you feel that? What was that?

“what was what?”

  • ‘it’s all my fault’, what is that?

“a judgement”

  • Yes. That is your mind. The personal mind we are exploring and deconstructing. Let us come back to the introductory invitation to enter into this practice with a non-judgemental and loving mind of observation and exploration.

“thank you”

  • An encouragement to recognize the emotions that arose in your body, where you felt them, and the corresponding effects in your mind.  Let’s take a few deep breaths together, relax the body and come back to the exercise from a place of balance.

[reader: please pause take a few breaths and continue]

The nature of challenge and growth.

This contemplative exercise aims to access the mind and find out who’s in control.

Next, let’s talk about the nature of challenge and relate it back to our process.

Challenge always has an effect in the body.

When we grow we expand from inside out.  The effect is that energy from our center is expanding outward and in all direction (this energy may be in our upper body, lower body, an organ, our spine, our energy field, etc). The process of energy expanding outward will meet a point wherein it approaches its limitation, or the border of expansion the energy of your bodymind has reached up until that point. At the edge of your expansion is a perceived limitation that has thus far been a boundary of what is possible. When we relate it to our dream or purpose, the process is one of creating a vision and moving towards it.  The next effect will be moving forward toward said purpose and consequently we will encounter a perceived limitation in the body or mind (please see your above examples of perceived external energies that limit your creation).  When you encounter a limitation or challenge there will be a corresponding pressure and localized contraction or change in your bodymind, perhaps a resistance to thinking or doing something, a tightness in the gut, or a closing in of the heart.  This is the area where the energy from your center is expanding outward, and the pain, the discomfort, the blocked emotion, the perceived limitation is piece of you that will be opened into and explored, and expanded upon. 

That’s a fair bit of information. Please read it over and assess its truth value.

Understanding this basic cycle of growth is important because to master the mind, we must understand the process of the mind, and how to move beyond it to break limitation and perceived blocks. 

When we have a direction, say towards our dream, and we have identified the perceived external limitation or belief, then there is an opportunity to turn within to the body and find where the specific holding is.  From here, once everything has been identified, one then turns to tools and techniques of inner development and clearing.  For example, I work with breathwork, movement, and meditation techniques. 

Why?

All development, is actually inner development. The breath is the doorway into the body and mind, and not just the personal conscious mind, but the breath allows us to access deeper aspects of the subconscious and superconscious mind. Through the breath we can go beyond the ordinary mind.  Because all blockages and limitations of mind and body have a body based component, moving the body and working with the energy of the body and mind are essential inner tools that are within you to be accessed at any time.

[transition]

We have thus explored the nature of setting a goal, encountering a challenge, identifying the perceived external limitations of the mind, tracing them back into the body, and then we briefly touched upon tools to clear blockages and move forward. This basic cycle is your key to mastering and achieving any goal, because the cycle is always the same, and the mind is predictable. The more you work with going beyond the mind, the clearer you see the mind, and then instead of being a victim to external energy or the nature of the mind, which is sometimes to judge or doubt, or create barriers, then you are empowered and resourced with a capacity to go beyond.

The journey then is to reclaim the energy you have given the mind and direct it towards your dreams. This is the process of empowering yourself and your actions.  It involves dropping the need to be liked, dropping the need to fit in, to succeed on someone else’s terms, it means dropping self judgement, and learning act from your center.

When you are at your center, your energy is an easeful outpouring of your authenticity.  It is not an effortful act, there is secretly nothing easier than being you, it just takes a process of unravelling all the faulty selves we have layered on top of our authenticity to find our intuitive way in the world.  It requires detaching from the mind and the conditioning one has built and learning to trust the inner guidance that is always within us. It is empowering to take your energy back from where it was leaking.  It is a process, be gentle on yourself, once more a reminder to be non-judgemental and loving as you turn within, for how else would you want to enter your innermost garden?  Coming to your center is a coming home, to your source, the same source of all of life.  When connected with source energy you are connected to the energy of creation, that roars like ten-thousand suns.  Clarifying your connection to your source and center creates a bridge between you and the universe, and all beings. 

[final meditation]

Allow for 5 minutes.

To complete this contemplation and meditation, sit comfortably.

Take your time to come to silence, a point of stillness in the mind, an inner quite before doing the following.

Become aware of the energy and space in front of you, behind, to the left and right side, above and below. Then find your center.

Sit in meditation or Write

Please repeat the following

I express by authenticity by ……(blank)

Example

I express my authenticity by acting freely

I express my authenticity by being free from fear

I express my authenticity by being honest

Continue on your own

Finish by taking three deep breaths, and letting go into a short meditation

[end]

THE SUBTLE ART OF DYING
(this a piece of contemplative writing, allow yourself to use it as a meditation, or read it with a mind of reflection)To begin…
Death is …?Let us shed light on death -Its purpose… our relation to it… and why it is such a mystery.
To get the most out of this contemplation, please take a few moments to contemplate or write about the following:

The meaning and purpose of death is…._________?
Read the question -pause- then allow your mind to come to stillness before jumping into thought… allow yourself to have a thought, pause, come to silence, and look deeper.
See how when you sit with a thought for a period the content and meaning has an opportunity to marinate?See how various levels of your mind can explore the vast notion that is death.
Philosophers, mystics, and people of all walks have sat with the notion of death for eons and they will for eternities to come. For there is a richness and depth to death that few other concepts and contemplations can offer.
Death is a source of meaning, fear, inspiration, and emotion.
[next]
Please sit with or write about the following:
Death means __________ to me and my life.

Draw from the surface. Come to silence and let the contemplation sink into your inner quietness and ask again, what does death mean to your story?
[transition]
Contemplations on death are essential meditation.

Essential because it is fundamental to you and your being. You cannot know yourself except through death. Why is this?…?

Pause and reflect.
[transition]
Death as a mystery.Death has a nature, and that nature is mysterious.Why? Why is death beyond the nature of the known?It is an eternal mystery.
That is why it has been contemplated for eons and will be for eternities.

An eternal mystery is an inaccessible dimension of knowledge and experience.
But, just because it is beyond the capacity for you to know, does not mean it has no effect on your life.


It is the opposite, I’m certain if you have sat with the above contemplations you will see that despite being an unknowable dimension of knowledge and experience, death has a purpose, a meaning, and place in your life that is deeply significant.

[side note]
For those who have solid beliefs about the nature of death and would disagree with me that it is a mystery and its meaning can be known as an accessible dimension of experience.Fair enough.
If you have an understanding of death wherein it is not mysterious, is your understanding complete? Is there is room for some mystery? If you are certain of heaven, or reincarnation, of certain astral or celestial realms… are all the details known? Or like tomorrow, though you may have some level of certainty that the sun shall rise and you shall awaken, is there any true certainty you will awaken? For thousands go to bed and do not wake up from their slumber.
[end: side note]


Thus far we have contemplated the purpose and meaning of death, our relationship to it, and its mysterious nature.

Let us now explore its opposite.
What is the opposite of death?
The opposite of death is…._______(blank)?Are you certain of your answer?

So then we have (blank) and death.
What is their relationship?

What is the role of the relationship of (blank) and death in existence?


You’ll note that there is room for more than one answer, and I will not be explicit on there being any one ‘right’ answer. This is a contemplation on an eternal mystery, do not expect any answer, just a deepening into the mystery, and an opening into the self and the nature meaning.
To approach a problem without hope of a solution is unsettling for the goal-centered mind that sees life as a problem to be solved, fixed, and understood.
To be clear, I could have written an article perhaps named ‘the problem of death’, in which I address death as a problem to solve, and how we can develop strategies to utilize death for specific purpose and achieve certain goals. There is nothing wrong with an article of this nature, and there would be a wealth of information and insight to be gained from using death as an axis of motivation to achieve or accomplish.
If death is a problem, it has a solution, and there is then a way to prepare for it. If the nature of death is such, then it is not a mystery.

What then is your truth?
Is death a solvable mystery, an axial source of understanding that leads to insight and understanding, and even liberation.

Or is death an eternal mystery, in which its very nature resists understanding and thus it acts as a continual source of unquenchable mystery and renewal?
Can it be both?

Can death be simultaneously a giver of knowledge and a source of eternal mystery?

Pause, contemplate……move on when ready.
[transition]
Death…and the nature the reality\

Assertion: you are not separate from the universe. As above, so below. The nature of existence is a fractal, holographic mirror reflecting itself at various levels of organization and complexity.

The nature of the life…the nature of existence…the nature of the external world…is the same nature as your internal world…is the same nature of the self…
It is your nature.
Pause, read it again and assess whether it holds a harmonious truth value in your body.

Allow your truth to be the cornerstone of understanding and contemplation.
What good is an understanding if it is not your own?

If then, death is a part of life, then it is a part of you.

There is an aspect of your essential nature that is death.
Contemplation:
How then is death a part of your body, mind, and being?

Sit or write it out to explore various levels of your being and body and see the legacy of death.


[final exercise]
Estimate time – 5 minutes

Take your time to come to silence…a point of stillness in the mind… an inner quite… before doing the following

Become aware of the energy and space in front of you, behind, to the left and right side, above and below. Then find your center.
Sit or Write

Death is…..Death is ….Using single words or sentences and clear your mind and come to new understandings.
Example…death is love.

Death is the source of meaning.

Death is the bringer of life.

To end, take several deep breaths and fully sigh and relax.

Sift into a few moments of meditation or reflection.


Enjoy.

[end]

KRIYA YOGA, THE BREATH, AND THE 4 LAYERS OF CONSCIOUSNESS

Blessings

These words are musings on truth…I am writing them to assess their level of truth as I express them and feel them through the felt-sense of their harmony in my being, and by the response by my larger body (the reader)Let’s dive right into an expanded view of the human-energy-matrix.

Your larger being proper is geometric, and thus there are layers above and below. Higher and lower selves, and their unity.

1. Supraconscious – beyond the bodymind, connected and associated with unity consciousness/god

2. Conscious mind – the consciousness most people operate in through the 5 senses

3. Subconscious (personal and collective) – personal and collective programmed patterns of being and relating, phobias, likes, dislikes, attractions, aversions etc.

4. Unconscious (personal and collective) – a deeper well-spring of archetypal energies and universal symbols, etc

At varying levels of analysis, these 4 structures are found in your body…

1. In the structure of your nervous system (brain and spinal cord proper)

2. In your structure of your body

3. In the structure of the universe

The four layers from supra to unconscious represent evolution, form unconscious matter, reptile, human, to God…. These are all found in the structure of the brain at the level of spinal cord, reptilian brain, limbic, and higher cortical brain, and at the level of your body…your body, referring to different aspects of your bodymind (they are one structure) wherein much of the unconscious and subconscious is stored in the lower body, the conscious in the head, and the supraconscious just beyond the head extending into the ethers and eternity

Most people’s consciousness and awareness resides primarily in the conscious mind. Though, in each moment, even if we are experiencing a particular aspect of our being, we are the whole, and thus, all layers from unconscious to supraconscious will affect your reality. But we do cycle through all stages every day, and in EVERY breath cycle (inhale to exhale), most people, most of the time are just not conscious of each part of the cycle.

Note: this is a particular framing and articulation of the states of consciousness we experience, here is another…In yoga the Om, or AUM (A-U-M) represent 3 states of consciousness: A = waking (conscious), U = dreaming (subconscious), and M = deep sleep (unconscious)When chanting AUM…. The “a” is a vibration that begins low In the body and in its vibratory tone, the “u” in the middle body, and the “m” is in the head…the proper chant is followed by silence after speech, the silence represent supraconsciousness, it is simultaneously the entire sound of AUM and the void for which it takes place in.

Once again we find the hierarchical nature and structuring of the states of consciousness represented in the body and being, and this time with a simple technique.[transition]In Kriya yoga, and with the breathwork I teach, the practices utilize the breath as a means of self-realization – becoming conscious of your entire being, unconscious to supra- through technique. By learning the practices I teach one will gain conscious access to all levels of their MIND, MIND in all caps denotes the great mind that spans all the 4 levels of consciousness, differentiated from the small mind, of the personal consciousness.

What lies within the pathway of Kriya yoga and breathwork?

Access to the subconscious systems that are creating the conditions of your life. And a capacity to rewire and rewrite all conditioned circuits with your conscious will.Access to the active archetypal energies that are being expressed in your being in this lifetime.

Access to heightened supraconscious states, with energy and information from all parts of the universe.An intimate understanding of your body and being, your soul blueprint, and a moment to moment connection to your soul and source.It is all through the breath, which is the vehicle your consciousness can ride into the highs and lows of your being. How deep or high you go depends on your willingness to turn within and perform the internal actions to bring more of your expression online and into actuality.

Kriya yoga is an internal science of the soul.In you, all there is to be known, and can be known…the way has be directly under your nose your entire life.

Breathwork is the direct path towards realization. It not a religion, it asks you to believe nothing, the truth is transmitted directly through the experience of breathing, nothing here need be believed, only the practiced need to be done. Breath is the source of original teachings, before Jesus, Buddha, before Gita, and Koran. It is your source for the direct experience of truth, not through any source or book, but felt in your own being, rippling through every cell. When the true breath has penetrated every cell of your being, realization is yours.

Cycling back to the 4 cycles and the idea that we go through them every day, and in every breath cycle. As the breath comes in, goes down, turn around, and comes back up, it touches every layer of your being…. From supra consciousness (god) to the unconscious. By learning to consciously breath and concentrate on the breath as it goes in and out and cycles around, we can learn to maintain consciousness through the cycles, the practice begins by simply watching the breath, and at a certain level of mastery an individual becomes conscious even while sleeping. For it is the body that sleeps, consciousness continues to cycle.

The breathing practices I share are not complex, and do not involve complex patterns of yoga asana movements which can be intimidating, and aren’t necessary for accessing all layers of consciousness. They do however require proper instruction and guidance, but they are open and available for all people.

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BEING/BECOMING PRESENT

What does it mean to you to be fully present?

What is the expression of your totality?

To be present, one needs to be whole…. wholly embodied, wholly in realization and self-awareness, wholly connected to their being, and operating in a moment to moment relationship with the universe.

What then prevents a person from being present?

Here are 4 ways individuals avoid the present

  1. Regret
  2. Nostalgia
  3. Fantasy
  4. Anxiety

These four states are projections of consciousness into the past or future.  To be in the past or future is to be out of contact with present reality and in your mind. The projected future is imaginal, it is fantasy, it is a personal projection…it is important, and there is value in having the capacity to project a personal envisionment for the future, but if too much time is spent in this realm, one will lose contact with the present. Regret and nostolgia keep us in the past. Many individuals are continually coming back to earlier moments in time, replaying the emotions of the past in the present, perhaps being attached to certain stories of the past, holding onto certain beliefs of past actions…all of these will present one from being fully present.

The past will continually call you back until it is complete. 

A complete past involves clearing the emotional memory from the body to receive its wisdom.  When the wisdom of the past experience is learned one can let go of that story and move forward in their learnings.

How to cultivate greater presence?

Be here, now.

 It sounds simple.

A good gauge is the breath.  How long can you sit still and count or watch the breath without the mind jumping in and redirecting attention from the present and into thoughts?

The breath is both the anchor to the present moment, and a guide to deepening present awareness.

Why is mind always pulling one away from the present?

It is the minds nature to expand and explore… An untrained mind will act in its nature. The practice of simply watching the breath in mindfulness is a way to train the mind. 

It is said that the mind is a terrible master, but a horrible servant.

But, it’s not only the mind that pulls us away from the present….it is also feeling

If we are fully present in each moment we will experience a constant stream of feeling….this means you will experience highs and lows, upset, boredom, sadness, joy, and all the things! If there is an unconscious desire to feel pleasurable states and avoid discomforting states, when discomfort arises in the body the unconscious urge will be to avoid feeling and avoid the present….the unconscious urge will lead one to numb themselves with drug, or food, or television, etc..everyone has their unique go to control patterns for regulating feeling without actually feeling.

The shift that takes place is when an individual makes the choice to be conscious and feel pain and pleasure. 

This is what one practices is mindful meditation and breath awareness meditation…. The practice is to simply sit and feel…to feel the boredom, to feel the stored hurt, to feel everything as it happens, without ‘doing’ anything, without avoiding, without numbing, just being with it.

The switch to move into pain instead of avoid it will cause a great resilience in character and empowerment…a certain level of energy will be reclaimed that can be utilized to bring more of your being online in the present moment.

The nature of your being is to grow and expand.

On all levels of your being, your essence seeks to know and grow…. Thus, to commit to continual presence, one is asked to be in a continually awake state of expansion. Now, there are forces of life, that create expansions and contractions, such as the breath, but the path and process is to continually expand after every contraction. 

To get up after each time you fall.

To try and try, even when you fail.

When an individual spirit has given up, there is no try, there is no energy to maintain presence.

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What are some observations you have made about individuals who live at a high level of presence?

I know they are living in their highest intention, for themselves and their cosmos, this intention is an embodied field of awareness.  They maintain a high level of energy through their interrelationships and connection with the shared growth process of all beings. Their entire being, and all its vibratory centers are alive and activated, clear and open to give and receive energy.  They live at a level of surrender, or non-resistance to life and its challenges. They live in a high vibrational state of love and gratitude and choose it over lower vibrational emotional energies of fear, guilt, and regret. They are willing to be seen and authentic, offering their own creative expression and love to the creation. Their eye is open, and willing to see truth. 

There’s much more… what other qualities do you find in awakened people of high presence?

What are your methods for staying present?  

I’d love to learn.

Blessings

Aya – zk

UNDERSTANDING THE PHILOSPHY OF TANTRA


DISCLAIMER – This is an exploration piece of writing that will help to give you a deeper understanding of some of the philosophical underpinnings of Tantra. It will be a brief overview of the 36 tattvas (36-9 covered), known to be a roadmap of consciousness. There is great value in understanding this complex system, but I’d like to also note it will get a tad philosophical, and there is always something lost when explaining something as broad as the ‘tantric worldview’ which is not as doctrinal or defined as I’m about to express it. My aim here is to offer a more detailed understanding for what tantra teaches, and how that exploration happens through the practices I share, such as movement, meditation, and breath.

Enjoy.
Tantra is non-dual.It is an exploration into opposites.
Tantra will often use the language of shiva (pure consciousness – masculine principle) and Shakti (matter + energy, and the world we experience as form and with our senses– feminine principle)Of the 36 tattvas, #36-17 are known as the lower tattvas, and they are associated with shakti.Here is a snapshot:
#36-32- the 5 elements#31-27 – subtle elements – such as odor, flavour, appearance, tactility, etc.#26-22 – body elements – evacuation (bowels) reproduction (genitals), locomotion (feet), etc#21-17 – pair with 31-27, smell, taste, seeing, touch, and hearing.….#36-17 are what you can experience in your body and in the world.In many spiritual systems, such as classical Sankhya philosophy or classical the 8 limb yoga of Patanjali there is a dualistic split, and a preference towards the male principle, the spirit, or shiva (pure consciousness)…they position the world as maya, or illusion, and many of the methods of meditation and the goal is to transcend this material universe and the human body and its senses, and to live in the realm of pure spirit.
The Tantrikas on the other hand, saw this as being world denying, and the lower tattvas, the senses, the contracted self and ego, and the world of form was taken in and embraced. Tantra then reclaimed what was taboo, such as sexuality in spirituality, eating meat, wine, and grains. Tantra did not simply reclaim them, it transforms them, by creating sensual meditations that utilize sense experience to realize wholeness.
The position here is that many people eat, or make love, but on a very surface level. A Tantrika is one who moves deeply into experience, enjoying the fullness of flavour, making sex a ceremony, and refining awareness and the senses to more totally experience the world.
Examples. I’ve heard of the great Zen teacher Thich Nhat Hanh guiding a sensual meditation in mindfulness wherein they ate an orange…. But it took them over 45 minutes to slowly take in every quality of their own being and the oranges being. Another example is the Japaneseteaceremony (known as sadō lit., “The Way of Tea“) Which is a Japanese cultural activity involving the ceremonial preparation and presentation of matcha that can take hours.
In regards to what I teach, when practicing yoga, or spending time with me on retreat, we are diving deeply into our senses, and with an authentic exploration and safe container, we are unraveling layers within the self to experience more….to feel more deeply, to nourish more deeply, to love more deeply, and to learn to use the breath to feel and activate our nervous system for greater sensitivity and awareness. We create an openness to experience all emotions, from joy to grief, from hot temperatures and sweat lodges to cold river dips. I hold the space for you to enter your totality and enter into full presence.
When the senses are nourished fully, awareness is suffused with aesthetic rapture, which increases your capacity to feel and know beauty. To explore the polarities of life with equal openness creates a resilience in character and an openness to life in all its forms and challenges.
In Tantra, and in what I teach, we focus on mindfulness and being. In mindfulness, one increases their sensitivity, concentration, and attention of being in the moment, while attending to their body, emotions, and mind.
In regards to the tattva system, mind is split into 3 qualities (other systems have 5).
Tattva # 16 – manas – or the faculty of sense processing and attention
In many people’s experience of reality, their faculty of mind is focused on the past… projecting past scenarios into the present moment, or projecting into the future, or being consumed in a constant stream of thoughts….. by taking attention and learning to focus it purely on sense processing, the awareness shifts more deeply into the present, allowing for a great state of being.
Tattva #15 Ahankara – ego –
The ego is the self construct that creates an “I, me, mine”.The mind creates ego, which is a fictitious identity that is constructed of constructs and previous self-images projected into the present as if their static realities. In Tantra, the ego is the contracted from of your totality, thus in mindfulness one learns to become aware of the ego, not to kill it, but to befriend it and constantly expand it.
Tattva # 14 Buddhi – intellect – faculty of discernmentThis faculty of mind is responsible for reason. In mindfulness, meditation and yoga we look to refine the discerning faculty of the mind to make good decisions. In Tantra there are no wrong decisions, only learnings….but some lessons are difficult, and with good discernment we can make good decisions which make the experience of reality flow with greater ease.
Think of the flow of life like a constant ocean wave coming ashore. A pure mind is what one aims for, which creates an easeful allowing of the wave to come ashore and wash over the sand. In this metaphor your mind in the sand, and the impressions of your mind (samskara – mental grooves) are like deep impressions or footprints in the sand which prevent the flow of life from easefully washing over.
Tantric practice clears the mind to not be patterned from the past.There is a great deal more to know about the feminine principle and tattvas 36-17, such as how the energy moves with the 3 guna’s (lightness, energy and passion, and inertia). But, I’ll save that for a class I’ll teach.
Thus we have explored the feminine principle of the world of form and energy, and the 3 qualities of mind.Now we move into the more abstract male principle of shiva or pure consciousness.
Tattva #12 – is shiva, the pure witness. Shiva is the ground of being, for which all matter and energy (shakti) is contained within. Shiva consciousness is omnipotent, omniscience, and omnipresent.
Tattavas #36-17 are the contracted and manifested reality, whereas shiva is the fullest expansion. Thus the philosophy of Tantra is that pure consciousness with its desire to know itself created limitations and contractions within itself known as the 5 shells (tattvas #7-10)#7 – limited power of action, #8 limited power of knowledge or incomplete knowing, #7 Desire, #10 time, #11 causality
In our contracted form we experience these limitations, and the encouragement and exploration in Tantra is to find the edge….there is thus a recognition that we have limited power to action and knowledge, but there is still a movement towards knowing more, for our knowledge in a contracted form will never be complete, and still we seek to know more…forever expanding into infinity.
Desire arises from a craving to be in yoga, in pure unity within pure consciousness or the divine… all desire for affection, sex, money, power etc stems from our incompleteness as a contracted form from our own divinity…thus, in Tantra it is important to recognize that satisfaction will never be achieved by sense pleasure, sex, money, or power, but there is also not a need to deny them, just to see that they will never satisfy your eternal soul, and thus, the impetus is to transform these desires into a prayer that connects you to the divine.For example, if you are in a relationship, see your partner as your divine counter-part, and enter into your relationship dually, on a human level, and at the level of divine self. If you are trying to meet your human needs and desires, you will always be unfulfilled, as will your relationship. If you recognize your divinity and connection to pure consciousness, you may then act from a place of fullness in your love, and it will be an expression of completeness, and you will be satisfied regardless of the relationship you may or may not have.
Then you may be in the world and not of it, then you may be satisfied without external circumstances needing to go your way, and still, you may be successful in life.
Tantra encouraged success in spirit, and in worldly life. Many spiritual systems of inquiry are about transcending this world, or creating a perfect world (heaven) that is not this world. Tantra says, enjoy both heaven and earth.
The tattva #10 is time… in tantra there is an encouragement to recognize time. Tantra is the art of recognizing life, for its fullness. A key word in tantra is awareness. Be aware of body, mind, emotion, time, qualities, desire, causality, limitation, etc. This is how tantra expands your consciousness, the more you can be aware of, and hold in your awareness, the more expanded you will be. Opening your consciousness.
It when one lives in the full awareness that all is temporary that they truly experience life…when we fail to recognize the limitations of time, we may lose ourself in the moment and take it for granted. Thus, by learning to be mindful of this moment of time, and simultaneously the past and future, and the fact that all is here, and all will be gone, we can fully take in the present, and be anchored in eternity.
Tantra recognizes time and that many people avoid the experience of the present moment because of feelings of regret, nostalgia, fantasy, and anxiety. When one recognizes these states, and feels them, they no longer avoid them, and they are better equipped to be more present.
Tattva #11 – causality
In Tantra one deals with karma by being unattached to the outcomes of action, which creates no karma. It teaches that the desire to attain or avoid specific results creates karma.I’m going to stop at tattva #6 for today, which is maya.Maya means illusion. But, in Tantra illusion is not negative, because it is necessary to for us to see duality for self-exploration. Therefore, once more tantra is about recognition. Tantra does not judge whether duality is good or bad, it simply recognizes there is duality and increases awareness.
I’d like to end on that final note, Tantra is about refining awareness, being totally involved in life, in its fullness, without preference for salvation or suffering, without desire for the fruits of actions, Tantra says yes to life, yes to experience.
As a teacher of Tantra and Tantric practices the space I hold is for you to experience all that you are, I do this by embodying these philosophies In my life which creates the capacity for you to do the same, I create and guide individuals through their body, feeling, and mind, and teach them techniques to experience of the fullness of their consciousness. Because Tantra is not merely a philosophy, though a road map is nice…tantra is about techniques, that is what the word tantra means. That is why tantra is not about goals, or philosophy, it is not about morals, it is about liberation and expansion. It is about loving all that you are, and all that the world is.
Tantra can help an individual on every level of their being and their being in the world. From finding connection to the earth, their tribe, their sexuality, their relationship, their occupation and offerings, their love, their voice and expression, their vision, and their connection to the divine. Because it sees an individual in their totality, it works on you at every level of being, and can offer you expansion in every aspect of what you are.
It’s an honour to hold space and learn from you. For though I teach tantra, I am as much a student, and the students are the teacher. We are teaching each other through our reflections and we are gaining self-knowledge. I need you to know myself, I love you, to love myself.
We are all one.And we are all many.Much love.
Let’s dance soon?