Turning 30 – spirituality


What’s does being 30 years old represent and mean to you?

The generalized gathered significance I’ve been exposed to is that 30 represents a ‘getting real’.

The charm and exploration of the 20’s has petered out, and there is a call or cry to take stock

There is a great need to check one’s foundations

There is good reason to assess one’s current patterns and project their success into the future

this lands well with me I rest easy in my level of alignment I have spent my 20’s living well …

meaning I have had time to explore and find my love and passions, to have freedom and purposeless play, I have taken enough risks and made enough mistakes that I feel certain in my life.

I feel certain that I’m on my path.

I am certain that everyone in my life, and my current level of resources is exactly what I need to move to the next level.

I am certain that I have been guided here, and that I have put in the work to get here.

A general pattern I’ve witnessed is one of easing into intelligent action instead of effort and hustle balancing forces of outward action and inward reflection to create a steadiness that can be carried into old age

a flourishing of relationships, from deep friendships, family bonds, and business I am in tune with my guides, my highest self, and in loving communion with the all

By this time next year I will be sharing breath/tantra/yoga/qigong/meditation internationally, speaking at events, leading more developed retreats and trainings…finding new territory and optimizing old systems. I will have my book out, and my practice in Squamish will have stable roots, allowing for another 1.5 month pilgrimage to the forest to deepen my practices… and it’s just the beginning (*note these are a taste of my goals, there are more, with exact numbers – manifestation is a science)

I’m deeply blessed to be where I am and I am humbled to know I am just a *boop* in the orchestra of existence

I carry on the lineage of my family – I would be nothing without them I am nothing without those I serve, those who support me, follow me, and pray for me

I carry on lineages of yoga and breath, I have received it takes the entire cosmos to conspire to create me, I am nothing without the infinite everything it’s time to deepen my commitments and offer myself wholly to my path I surrender myself, taking these next few years in solitude and service

…just a vessel for a force far greater

the birth name is Zachary Pete Koop, son of Daryl and Julie Koop I have also been given the name Aya

it’s been a pleasure knowing you all allow me to reintroduce myself, not with another name but a whole new energy and intention, direction and dedication

I’m all in

may our meetings be a blessings to you

may my medicine I bring balance and awakening, healing and evolution

may I be humble and strong may I leader my life with love

it is done

and so it is

-book now below-


ZK Alignment Coaching Process

– Your journey towards realization and dream manifestation
It’s my understanding that it takes a certain level of realization and evolution to clarify your vision in life. It then takes a dimension of devotion and discipline to that path to attain it. This process involves the gradual cultivation of your life force energies moving in alignment with your conscious intention.
I’ll define life force energies as the sum total of your energy outputs. Think of it this way, you receive a certain sum of energy from your food, breath, sunlight, etc. When you go to work, or to the gym, or make a decision, you spend a portion of your life force energy.
Because we are all born into unconsciousness we are instilled with a plethora of habits and routines that may or may not be serving your highest aims of evolution.
We leak our precious life force energy out in insidious ways as we get distracted by irrelevant news, commercials, ads, partially checking our social media etc.
But by the far the greatest energy leaks you need to control are associated with:
1. Your environment – the physical landscape and the people you associate with.2. Your fear, guilt, shame, low confidence, and other emotional states that prevent you from trusting your path, your truth, and your heart 3. Sexual desire 4. Appetites for pleasure and food 5. Disregard for the necessary requirements of keeping your body and mind healthy through – drinking, moving, breathing, and sleeping.
Without a certain level of mastery over the above, it is hard to direct your life force energy where you want them.
There is a great deal of unconscious conditioning for the above list, and some of the first stages of taking control of your life force is to slowly add consciousness into these areas.
There is also a great deal of unprocessed emotion that is often accumulated from early childhood that is involved in this conditioning
it has been my experience that a certain level of inner work and healing is needed to know oneself enough to have clarity on what you truly want. If one makes plans to early without shining a light on who they really are, they will soon realize they were only seeking an unconscious unmet need rather than their True North.
You don’t need to spend decades healing…unless you do. What is often needed is enough clarity in yourself, enough confidence, and enough control over your appetites and energy to move forward and develop a dream of sufficient magnitude.
in general, a dream made from unconscious desires and unmet needs seeks to fulfill the needs of the ego, whereas a conscious dream is made from the place of the heart and seeks to serve the earth or it’s people in some way unique to the individual’s gifts and greatest love.
The next step is moving out of the energies of the past and steering the life force energy towards evolution and dream creation. This is a process of continually adding conscious intention, discipline, and devotion to your chosen path.
As you continue to steer your life force energy into the future your remaining unconsciousness, unmet needs, and unprocessed emotion will often arise as barriers to your outward manifestation. That’s why it’s not necessary to do all your past healing before moving forward.
Over time your relationship with your environment, emotions, sex, food, pleasure, and body will evolve.
Possibly opening new dimensions of experience.. some may choose to re-examine and sanctify and re-explore all their previously unconscious acts with conscious intention…others will choose to abstain – or different parts of the journey may have different ways of relating.
At first it takes a certain level of will to steer your life force energies in the direction of your choosing. This is not the will of the ego, like the will people use to enforce a diet. This is the will of the heart and love -a much greater force.
There will be a phase where you dance between being alignment and out of alignment with your evolution, and you’ll develop a intuitive sense of direction and a deep trust within yourself.
After some focused time of discipline and devotion you’ll steer the majority of your life force energy in the direction of your own evolution and it will become easeful. Where at first you were swimming against a stream to get where you wanted, now your swimming with the stream.
I should also mention that it is possible for individuals to take this conscious evolution without aligning to the heart and serving the all. They chose (consciously or unconsciously) to serve themselves and their own needs and desires, and they may even master all their life force energies, making them powerful people in the world.
In my coaching system I borrow inspiration from the Yamas and Niyamas found in The Yoga Sutras, which in some ways amounts to internal and external values. I think of it this way, we have a nervous system that is our primary vehicle of conditioning our relationship with our internal and external world. The patterns of being and relating to self and other that we consciously instill are imprinted into our nervous system. Therefore, in my program it is essential that an individual commit to an internal and external set of values that will steer their conscious evolution. In my understanding its better to have good patterns instilled in the nervous system before gaining power. Evolution and development is not a rushed process.
I teach many powerful methods of breath and body, and have worked with many powerful plants and healers and I’ve learnt that you cannot rush your growth.
My program starts with finding what you love, developing a vision and values first, and then the primary vehicle of development is the stabilizing practices of yoga, qigong, and breathwork. They are the foundations of slowly regulating, rewiring and optimizing the nervous system.
Remember, it is a process. It is my experience that there seems to be a great rush to ‘get there’, ‘achieve’ and ‘attain’ ….I had it too. Until you get to a point where your energies are all moving where you want them to go, then I realized there’s no rush or destination. Be gentle on yourself. That does not mean don’t get started on your journey immediately and devote yourself to it, you life force is slowly dripping away, and every second counts…and yet, one must balanced that with the wisdom that nothing is done well, unless it is done right.
For those that are interested here is a rough lay out of my coaching process.
1. Develop and explore what you love. 2. Build a vision 3. Develop a purpose 4. Determine internal and external values
(the above are done in whatever capacity is available at the moment to give direction and a starting point, knowing that building a vision and purpose are continually changing affairs)
Assessments 1. Mental, emotional, physical, spiritual health2. holistic health: eating, drinking, moving, sleeping, breathing, thinking, etc 3. 7 chakra alignment 4. Yin and yang balance
Tools and practices
Evolutionary Flow – I teach a self developed system that combines various yoga, and qigong traditions, meditations, exercises fitness, breathwork and more.
development of a morning routine for daily conscious implementation..
in general 7 principles of daily morning routine are
1. Love2. Gratitude 3. Intention4. Breath5. Movement 6. Meditation 7. Creation
——-If your ready to commit to your journey towards dream manifestation message me or check out my many offerings such as 1 on 1 breathwork, workshops, and retreats at ZK alignment Coaching or on insta at @breathwithzac

The Psychology of Evil – why understanding evil is the key to freedom
Eyes dilated; stapled open

Their soul’s ready: about to be freed from body

before the burning
Enlightenment: to see the light

Nazi’s murdered ~ 6

million humans In the Gulags…~ 12 million perished under Stalin’s wraith

The tortured body of the single child

Blood red: left for dead

Is enough to silence a good heart into sainthood
Only the naive and sheltered know not the presence of evil Though she slithers through time

Roman torture games

Black death plague

Rwanda genocide
The history of evil starts at the beginning

The story of evil, is ours

The force of evil lives on as it always has

The black sin of the devil’s bane that drove over 75 million human being to death in world war 2

Is you
It’s a part of you

And it’s a part of us

Let’s talk about it
Until we can see our shadow, we cannot know the light

“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” We don’t become any brighter by focusing exclusively on the light; we become more fully alive by integrating dark and light, by embracing that which has been rejected.” -Jung

The roots of the tree grow deep down into the cold dark soil, without the depth, there can be no height. And so man is caught in an inescapable reality of dark and light, higher and lower, right and wrong. Each generation has their fight, their individual and collective battle for what is right.

Until one understands the mind of evil, there is a creeping fear lurking in the shadows Until one can stare unflinchingly into the eye that would stand to give orders for millions to die

They cannot see the world as it is

They are living in an illusion And they cannot be free from fear
A (wo)man that has not sufficiently seen their own evil, is a caged animal with a killer instinct

The cage is the dulled down way of living out of tune with the way nature – the world as it is-

Disrupt the society and the illusory bonds of the cage will be broken

And watch the superficial morality fall victim to animal nature

It’s not inevitable that we are to be wolves The spark of divine is the light within You cannot be free from fear until you know what haunts you

———- The psychology of evil ———-

In its darkest manifestation

Evil revels in painful penetration

The mind lives in the shadow of its unconscious When all is dark, nothing is seen right and there is no light or hope The soul is tethered by a strand, a shell of a human Without orientation and direction… they are lost Moral maturity and decency, is the realm of the conscious and evolving mind towards greater unity, awareness, and love Those who do not take the meaningful journey towards oneness, do what is expedient and in their own interests

Where love seeks life

Evil seeks to exterminate

Where love seeks joy

Evil craves to torture
There are those that wish to depopulate this planet There are those that want to murder children and drink their blood

And continue to have sex slaves

They harvest organs

They are ready to destroy everything beautiful
The force of evil that lives in these humans, is not new Look to the torture devices of the middle ages Or the days of Ghengis Kahn, who is estimated to have killed 40 million people

Read about Rasputin

Do not act like these atrocities aren’t happening If our civilization is to rise into its maturity it must deal with our darkness

And it must happen at the center of every heart
The force of evil is intelligent It craves control One could lose themselves for months reading of the horrors of emperors, military leaders, and kings

eugenics movements

population control

racism genocide

History is a pattern There is a psychology of evil

It wants power control



It seeks the upper echelons of society behind a black curtain
It is not a petty criminal Do not underestimate the dark force
Good natured people are often naive to evil They become prey to the predator Good natured people don’t seek power and control with the adrenaline fueled bloodlust that the force of evil inspires And so history is caught in a inescapable pattern of competing forces

It plays out of the world stage, but the battle is truly fought and won in the heart Know your nature And you cannot be deceived What we know in ourselves, we can see in others Seek to be strong and fearless, not secure

Why am I speaking of evil at a time like this? Because most people who have grown up in the western world have not bear witness to pure evil

Most have been exposed to petty evil Or desensitized to evil on their television

Most know evil as something long ago, or far away And not something living in their own heart or something that will effect them and their children playing out on the world stage

Most have not been tested Or tipped toed into the depths of their psyche to see what horrors they could commit
Most have not had to entertain moral dilemmas that push an individual to their moral maturity (thankfully)Would you kill to save your family? On what conditions? How far would you go… if your world fell apart …if your society crumbled…or if you were caught in war…given power…or been robbed of every decency and tortured

How then can you hope to understand people like Hitler? Manson? Mao?

How can you hope to understand how world war 1 and 2 happened?

How then can you understand the world?

Do you think we are not connected to our history?

Do you think the same force of evil does not lurk in the heart of every man and woman on this planet?

This is not us versus them, we are all one, and we all have a capacity for evil

Country leaders fall

Good men and women fall good

free societies fall
Our culture has long since killed God

With it sin and satan left too

Antiquated and polluted archetypes perhaps

But we have not killed evil
This is not to inspire fear It’s to be clear about the world we live in

And the nature of our heart There is nothing to fear, fear is a illusion

Danger is real

Evil is out there, and in here And so is the good and pure
Rest your strength and sight here

Keep your eye on what is right and true

Not to the degree of delusion

The only way to conquer fear, evil, and death is to meet it directly and consciously

Fear is unconscious It makes you controllable, like an animal

Consciousness is the light that dispels fear
When you feel fear creep near

Meet it with courage

And see that the snake, is but a rope in the shadows

The monsters are not under the bed
This is not rose gold, suffering is real

Witnessing death and disease happen

And love can meet you there This is not an antiquated idea
Love is a force far greater than any evil In the name love, you will rise Seek to know truth, even though it may take you to the valley of the shadow of death

You are the one you’ve been waiting for

You are not alone We are one And this battle will be won, In the hearts of all people

We are not free people in the world, until each heart is free of from fear

We are in process of freeing every living soul

Clearing the collective shadow and fostering a more enlightened society

May all beings be free from ill will

May all being be safe and protected

May all beings be loved

All my relations

Constructing the Archetypal Hero of 2020

The primordial image, or archetype, is a figure–be it a daemon, a human being, or a process–that constantly recurs in the course of history and appears wherever creative fantasy is freely expressed. Essentially, therefore, it is a mythological figure. . . . In each of these images there is a little piece of human psychology and human fate, a remnant of the joys and sorrows that have been repeated countless times in our ancestral history. . . .Carl Jung

In each generation a new myth evolves. We are writing the human story in the joys of the sorrows of covid-19. Though our situation is novel, there are recurring themes embodied in individuals through archetypal patterns.

Archetypes resemble the beds of rivers: dried up because the water has deserted them, though it may return at any time. An archetype is something like an old watercourse along which the water of life flowed for a time, digging a deep channel for itself. The longer it flowed the deeper the channel, and the more likely it is that sooner or later the water will return. -Jung

The Hero archetype is the knight who slays the dragon or the superhero who saves the city from evil. The basic quest of the hero archetype is to overcome the monster of darkness, and to allow consciousness to conquer unconsciousness. Strength is the key features of the hero, along with an irrefutable quest to fulfill their life mission. For a hero must be willing to delve into the darkness alone, even when there is but a thread of hope. A hero is not without supernatural aid, or a gift, though it may take them most their journey to realize their sacred power.

Don’t think that the symbolic representations of heroes are disconnected from your situation, the reality of archetypes is that they are not merely the stuff that comics and movies are created from. The reality is, they are the substructure of what you are made from.

You are far more than your personality, more than your habits, more than your achievements. You are an infinitely complex human being with stories and myths and dreams- and ambitions of cosmic proportions. Don’t waste time underestimating yourself. Dream big… Use the energy of your archetype to express the true reason you were born. Life was never meant to be safe. It was meant to be lived right to the end.-Caroline Myss

The hero archetype lives within you for a reason. Connecting with this power that has been enacted through your ancestors for generations with the intelligence imbued in the DNA of your living and breathing cells, is a choice. A choice to rise, or fall to the shadow of the hero, the coward.

Not all hero’s wear capes, or have the typical Hollywood portrayed story that is often represented in hero myth such as those mentioned previously.
The archetype of the hero has a thousand faces.

“It is only when a man tames his own demons that he becomes the king of himself if not of the world.”― Joseph Campbell,

This is an inward journey, as much as it is an outward one. The call…
for those who are ready to hear it
Rise now to the heroes that sleep. The bell tolls, it’s time to fulfill your sacred contracts, it’s time to write your destiny in the stars, to realize who you are, to give your gifts to the world, and to save your soul, thus freeing your world, and all people.
We are not in age of swords, guns, or bombs. We are in the age of computers, artificial intelligence, and psychological warfare. The great battle being waged is taking place in the mind the hearts of all people.
Truth is a sword. Love is a shield.

There is a war on freedoms. Free speech. Freedom of information. When there is no freedom to have decent dialogue among altering opinions, there is dogma. We are in the age of MK Ultra and mind control. There are wolves in sheep clothing, people are not who they seem, and logic and fake news, and fake science is being weaponized.
The modern hero cannot win this battle with his/her intellect alone. He/She needs the guidance of the heart, and the instinctual wisdom of the body. There is a call for each person to connect with their head, heart, and body. The breath can meet you there. Move, breath, love, and feel the safety that is available to you. Fear is an illusion.Be mindful what you consume, think, breath, move, sleep, drink, and eat well. Choose to think critically, and form your own opinions. We are the generation that wakes up to our role in the co-creation of reality. Each individual is called now to play their part in the whole.

we are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality.tied in a mutual garment of destiny. What affects one, affects all indirectly- Martin Luther King Jr.

We are the generation that paves the way for a new earth. History is the evolution of freedom and consciousness. Look how far we have come. Look at the civilization we have built. Our ancestors have prayed for us, they live on through us, and we carry the next generations. It’s time to ask yourself what kind of world you want to build for your children, and what you can do to help.

Look to history, we shall overcome. We shall overcome. We shall overcome. Deep in my heart I do believe we shall overcome. And I believe it because somehow the arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends towards justice.We shall overcome because Carlyle is right; no lie can live forever. We shall overcome because William Cullen Bryant is right; truth crushed to earth will rise again.
– Martin Luther King Jr.

You are the hero you’ve been waiting for. You are the one.

What is your purpose?What are your gifts? What modern day heroes do to see in the world?
——-If anyone needs aid in breathwork, yoga, qigong, and meditation, message me for information, or if you’d like to work 1 on 1 with me I have coaching available to help you develop your dream, find your purpose, and live your values.
Be well


(Free?) Writing Exercise

Estimated time to complete: 10 minutes – 300 Saturn years (approx. 29.5 earth years) – aka take as long as you need\

Instructions: Below are a series of words. Write the word on a piece of paper (or type), and then write your response.

Comments:- This exercise may be done as a free writing exercise, meaning as soon as you write the word, you write you reflection without pause. Free writing helps to create flow in the mind, move past judgement, and access different layers of the psyche – This exercise may be done as a contemplation. An option to practice contemplation meditation on the words rather than write about them.

– Or meditate on the words, then write your reflections. Then repeat every 29.5 earth years and see if anything has changed.

– Before beginning the exercise, center yourself by connecting with your breath and body. Maybe have a bath and clean any dirty dishes that may be in the sink. Smile, be at ease, and begin.

On Purpose:

– Purpose is your soul’s deepest yearning. The feeling of purpose in the body is aliveness, an openness in every cell to see and to serve. It can be frightening to find your purpose, especially when your life is currently not constructed around it. A mere dance with purpose will open you in ways only a lover had before, it can be frightening because you will be unsheathed and a primal urge may arouse you with a wild energy that you wrestle with…upon finding something so precious, you may be immediately aware what’s at stake in life. You may be intimated by the fear that to follow your bliss and to fail is worse than death. Or the presence of purpose may come on slow, your psyche is shy to admit its deepest yearning, like a guilty pleasure to be an erotic dancer when you are a straight edge banker. Purpose is the most addicting drug there is, the more you court her, the deeper you fall for her…the more time you spend in her, the more your body needs her, and rejects all others. She is the strange attractor calling your soul forward into the unknown. Will you dare to dance with her?
On Music:
– Music is the voice of God. It takes form like an emotional mist, capable of osmotically entering into every cell.

On Nature:

– Nature is devouring mother, and a loving mother. Nature is the reflection of the collective human psyche. Nature is a mirror. Nature is place to live and die. Nature is the cosmic womb. Nature is beyond good and evil. In a city, you have a name, fame, pride, blame…alone in nature, you are nothing. But not nothing is a dead way, you are nothing in nature, because you a free to be anything -this is the natural state of all-. Nature has no names nor borders, there are no trees separate from bees. All division lies in the mind of mankind. Nature is a sea, an ocean of trees, mountains of water, she is metaphor and prose, and she is the paper we write our story upon.
On Death:

– Death is the source of life. Marry death, and you be wed to the perfect marriage of opposites. To know death as your wife, is to realize the purpose of life. To keep a ring on your finger, a reminder of your relationship, is to live in the world as it is. To forget death in any moment, is to lose yourself in the dream. Keep her near and with you and meaning will drip from each moment. She cannot creep up on you if she is held in constant awareness. She cannot rob you of loved one’s if you know they are already gone.

On Love:

– Love is misunderstood. Love is a marriage, as much as it is a murder. – Love is.
On Art:

– Art is a direct seeing of the mind. Art is inspired action. Art is the perfect paradox of being simultaneously meaningless and meaningful. You are art. Art is beyond good and evil.

On Dance:

– Dance is what happens when all the galaxies and planets are perfectly placed in the cosmos to create the conditions for you to be in this body and to express the language of the soul in the freedom of your movements. Dance is what births universes.

On Laughter:

– Laughter is a type of orgasm. Laughter births universes. Laughter is the 6th love language.

On Self:

– The self is alpha and omega, beginning and end. Thus, the Self is all there is, it’s alexander the great conquering lands, as much as it is bill sitting on the toilet. It’s a passionate love affair, as much as it is a foot fetish. It is beyond good and evil. The Self finds expression through laughter, dance, art, and writing. All are eternal acts of the one infinite creator. The self is silly, sexual, sorry, and sad…simultaneously.


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